In the words of Mandisa's new song, "Not scared to say it, I used to be the one, Preaching it to you, That you could overcome, I still believe it, But it ain't easy, 'Cause that world I painted, Where things just all work out, It started changing, And I started having doubts, And it got me so down..."
I hate my emotions. I shouldn't because they are God-given. But I do. I tend to be overly sensitive. I feel differently and about different things than most people. So I try to control them. Stuff them down. Cover them up. Refuse to reveal them. Often I would prefer being numb to feeling pain or what I deem as negative emotions of any kind. I know that emotions are God-given and He speaks through them. They are meant to be a beautiful part of being human. They are important to God and He catches every tear.
I found it to be an odd place and yet as thinking on it I guess is a normal place for all believers. Every day we live in the tension of being in this world and not of the world. The tension of living surrounded by sin and yet set apart for God's purposes and plans. We have to learn to live in the tension and still be glorifying to God even through the struggles. It's a hard thing to do and also a beautiful thing to watch someone do it well.
We often think God Love Us is part of the basic elements of our faith. What happens though when you are a Christian and you still don't believe and rest in that love? Some promises and encouragement for you if you struggle to feel loved.
When the storms of life hit I struggle at times to continue writing in this space. I feel like I have no words that would be of any use to you. So today I come before you apologizing for not being consistent in my writing here and admitting that I don't have all the answers. … Continue reading Are You Causing Your Own Frustrations?
Life is what happens while you are busy making other plans-John Lennon I had the best of intentions to write to you regularly this year and I was doing great for awhile. Sometimes we make plans and then God interrupts with His own things. I've been a bit blindsided with a recent revelation and at … Continue reading What Happens When You Ask God to Strengthen Your Faith